long time...

Man its crazy how much time has passed since i last wrote on here... wow! Last week was my birthday, yay, happy birthday to me,lol.
There really hasnt been too much goin on with me.. well this week has been horrible. It was just really stressful, and emotional. Recently my dad got layed off, and at the moment he's un-emplyed, and im just having to trust God with whatever the future may hold for my family.. even though its sorta scary right now! I dont know if i'll have to move or anything, but God's using this expierence for me to trust him with everything!! Its really hard to give everything to God.. Beyond the whole trust thing, theres been other things that i have been dealing with by just handing them off to God, and leaving them at the cross. Sometimes it really super hurts, but then after i leave them at the cross, i feel lighter, like im not carrying a sumo on my back (well you get my drift..lol). This was horrible because of just emotional strain, and feeling of desperation, which i didnt really understand until now.. i havent really been spending much time with God these last couple of weeks, because of the hectic scheadule of exams, and studying.. so i was feeling desperate.. like i was drowning.. i felt like i was trying to do things on my own with out God, which was horrible.. and so by wednesday i couldnt take it anymore, and i think i cried all night..so pathetic, but its just what was going on with me.
I dont know if anybody else gets this where they can walk into a room, and feel the tone, and what people are feeling.. my mom has it too... but anyways i felt like i was depressed, and streesed, and a million other things.. i just like other peoples problems had become my own, which they hadnt, but i was carrying them around... i needed to leave them at the cross, where they belonged! It wasnt my stuff to carry around. My moms been goin through some stuff with me on burden bearing, because someimte sits just so.. heavy! lately ive been like why do i have to be a burden bearer...you know? im not too sure about the answer right now, but im hoping God will answer me there.
Right now im thinking about doing Samuel Mantle's next year.. which is super exciting.. well atleast im excited for right now! My parents both go.. my moms in to her 3rd year, and my dad is in his 2nd... but i just feel like its the right thing for me to do.. like Gods pushing me towards there..
anyways im goin to head out for bed..its getting late..g'night ladies and gentlemen!
~dani

good songs!
~Faith- jason upton
~Perspectives- Kutless
~Addicted- Kelly Clarkson (dontlaugh..)
~So long sweet summer- Dashboard confessional
~Get Right- jennifer lopez.. dont laugh!!
~Big Ocean-the wildings! (lovin them right now!!)
~anything by lauren hill