life

around every turn it feels as if life is getting harder and harder by the minute. I mean, with God's help i think id be free falling to the ground at this very moment. There seems to be so much running through my head, and i cant get thoughts straight. Whats to happen, What am i to do? Why cant life be easier, is all that keeps going through my mind. Why do people have to do some thingsthat can hurt so much, and still yet you can still love them. Why does life have to be so damn unfair. Life hurts. I wish sometimes that iwas eight again, and i didnt have to go through all this b/s all the time. Life would be so innocent, and niave. The good days. Perhaps maybe i could skip this period of my life, and it would be fine too. To be older and wiser. Travel the world. Design clothing, have my own company, become internationaly known for the stuff i design.. Life would just seem perfect, yet i realize nothing is perfect. hmmm... perhaps life at this moment will have to do.. i dont know reallyanymore

How long have I been in this storm
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
The water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head
.
If I could just see you everything would be alright
If I could just see you this darkness would turn to light
.
And I will walk on water
And You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into Your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright
.
I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving have become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface
.
And I will walk on water
And You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into Your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I was just listening to this, and it just gave me... i dont know. it has just been the song for me lately.. storm by lifehouse

g'night