Come away with me....

alot of people last year went to the conference that steenies church held, "Take Hold", and it was totaly amazing. I took the worship work shop, and last week when i was sick for like three days, throwing up, yeah you dont really want to know about that, i found that God was willing to me. God is willing to meet us half way, but we have to do our part, we need to be willing to get to know him, lvoe him, and just be near him. So you guys know how Kate was talking about Heather Clark writing a card forGod, and making a dinner for God, i decided that i was just goin to hang out with God like we were the bestes of friends, and it was truly amazing! I sat there and laughed, and felt the best i had in two days! i could feel him there, and it jut made me feel all giddy! it was just the most amazing thing ever!
A friend of mine from church prayed that i come to know God more initmitly(however you spell it), and she recommmened a song... "Come Away with Me" b Norah Jones. That song is just the way i want to feel with God. My own getaway with him. Just hide and be with him. The amazing thing is that we are able to get away with him! im suer hiped up about it..lol.
i should probably start my homework too.. so much science!

i love you guys
~dani

good songs: white house- Vanessa Carlton, Come away with me- Norah Jones, You- switchfoot, & Nobody's Home- Avril Lavigne

Worlds Apart

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die
To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who lovesmore
deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done
I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life
I should not own
It takes all I am to believeIn the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown awayI look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

~Jars of Clay- Worlds Apart

I started this blog because it was time to for a change.. i've had my other blog for almost a year.. like 10 months or something, but i love this one. i feel like ive grown up so much since last year and that theres more to talk about in here. ive grown more deeper with God, and so i think its right to finally change my blog. my other one is still goin, but i'll just have the link for this one on there. anyways later guys!

Who am i in God?

Maybe there's a time when people dont ahve to fully understand what they are going thourhg with God. I've been upset to a postion where i havent wanted to talk to him, and yet i know he's there waiting for me to come back to him. Today it finally occured to me that nothin was ever going to become somewhat "all right" if i let myself go on ignoring God's precense or anything he was trying to do in my life. It's one of those days where you feel as though nothing could go right, and so finally you go "alright God im listening, Im sorry i've pushed you away, but i need you to help me get through this"... that was today for me.
This year for me has so far been really hard. My best friend is gone, although i do get to see her, and im not enjoying the way school has gone so far, but theres really things beyond that. I've tried to live up to peoples standards, what they want me to be like, who they want me to be like, and you know what? its not working for me. I cant go on pretending to be someone i'm not, its not fair to me and its not fair to my relationsihp with God and everyone else around me. I dont want to be the most popular kid in life, i dont want to be inpersonal with people, i dont want to have to go out every night so it looks like a teenagers life. I just want to be myself. i want to be a person who loves havin in depth conversation with people on how theyre doing, whos inlove with god, i want to be like Jesus, thats would i want to be like.. I just want to follow God and be who he wants me to be, and try to follow what he wants to me to do. Theres more to life then "fitting in" and ive had to learn that this past year or two.

I just want to find out who I am in God.

I believe it was mark who said in his blog that people are constantly putting on masks trying to please other people. Why be one person with someone and another way with another person... If God is watching all the time, and sees who we are when were at home, or with one friend, or at school, then shouldnt we try to be the same all time? Why try to be something were not? God made us who we are, and he loves us for who we are.
Ive never actually put on a "mask" as people say, but ive l;ived up to what people expect of me, and its just tiring tryin to do that all the time. I just want to live for God and his longings for my life.