Perhaps life has just began...

I am finally begining feel like I am my own person, and I am finding some identity in who I am, and not who people want me to be, or want me to turn out like. It's all so exciting..

Identity.. so wierd. I mean when we're first kids we are "identified" as "so and so's kids", not who we are.. yet because we are so young we don't actually care at that point..

We hit our teen years, and we want to be "identifiable", but yet we have no understanding of who we are yet... we are still searching for the meaning of our lives, and are still impressionable by the lives that are around us.

In our twenties, we probably are going to have some understanding of who we are, but depending on the person, we probably still won't know, or will know for sure..

But I think I'm at a place in my life where I look around, and I know what i want to do in my future, who admire, and where I think I'm going...

I want to travel all of Europe, meet interesting people, take pictures, backpack, learn from life that is around me there.. I want to find another part of myself in Europe..

I want to go to Filming school, photography school, and fashiong and merchandising schools.. I want to find out more about business.. I want to know about phsycology...

I want to find out God's amazing plan for myself, and what He has in store for me, and what awesome surprises are going to be headed my way.. the Ups and the Downs.. I want God to use some awesome people in my life for guidence, and and just people I can look up to (although I already have that). I want God to use my aspirations to further the kingdom! I want my talent to benefit Him and all His glory!

I've been thinking about everything, and everyone... and just life it's self..

Perhaps doorways will open soon...

But Life is begining for me...

I'm starting to feel like myself...

Anyways, my thoughts are all here..

~Dani

just some songs im loving at the moment..

Praise Him- David Crowder Band

Stars- Switchfoot

Indie Rock and Roll- The Killers

American Baby- David Mathews Band

All of Chris Tomlin

Everything

find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where I find peace again

you are the strength

that keeps me walking

you are the hope

that keeps me trusting

you are the life

to my soul

you are my purpose

you're everything

and how can I

stand here with you

and not be moved by you

would you tell me

how could it be

any better than this

yeah

you calm the storms

and you give me rest

you hold me in your hands

you won't let me fall

you still my heart

and you take my breath away

would you take me in

take me deeper now

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

and how can I

stand here with you

and not be moved by you

would you tell me

how could it be

any better than this

cause you're all I want

you're all I need

you're everything

everything

you're all I want

you're all I need

you're everything

everything

you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything

you're all I want

you're all I need

you're everything

everything

and how can I

stand here with you

and not be moved by you

would you tell me

how could it be

any better than this

and how can I

stand here with you

and not be moved by you

would you tell me

how could it be

any better than this

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this?

This song is speaking to me right now... g'night

dani

some food for thought...

Perhaps it's the new season, and the freedom that comes with this season, that i have decided that im going to keep track of whats going on with me and God and just life. I feel as if change is coming my way, so therefore i should be able to look and see what new season is headed my way. Im excited for change!

Lately there have been people on my heart, who i feel have "need" or who are searching, or triying to figure their lives out, without any help. For these people who are in need or tring to figure life out, icant help but think of choices and decisions that we've all made. I mean what causes us to want to drink? Is it just the custom to have fun? Or is there something deeper that compels us? What makes someone question their faith, and all that we have forever known and valued? And all that i can seem to gather is sin.. In Genesisi it talks about God making the world PERFECT, and then the trickery came, and sin entered the world and mankind became sinful. Human nature was born with sin. Now i dont believe that we should always just fall back on old "Well it's all sins fault.." but to be fair to "sins" behalf, we are given free will, and with every choice that we make comes a with a consequence, good or bad. There are sometimes when i look at lives around me, or lives i hear about, and i think what possibly went through them at the moment they decided to do whatever they did.. was there anything keeping them back? But at 16 i think we all want some "independence", thefore blowing off an authoritative figure doesnt mtter. But why are we questiong or blowing off an authoriitative figure? to get a response?

I know im asking tons of questions, but im just thinking..

Even after asking all of these questions, i keep coming back to another question.. Why the heck did God give us free will? Why couldnt there be only one way to do something? Why cant God just point all the choices that are ahead, and if they will give an good consuquence in the end or a bad one? Why couldnt there be only black and white, not any grey areas/?? I think that God gave us freewill in hopes that we will come away from a situation learning from a mistake we made, or some understanding. Perhaps if we didnt have freewill we'd be a mindless society (in a way) and we would never learn lessons for our selfs and decided what values we have or who we are.

Anyways just some food for thought....

dani

some good reads this week: The God who speaks blog (its on my blog here), steenies philosphy on life.. so good!

Some good tunes: Coldplay (fix you, and my message), Jakc Johnson, hmm and some others